Freak Paralysis Leads to Strange Discovery

Suzette Standring
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(Photo: Taken in front of a picture at the Zelos Hotel in San Francisco.  It represents that I’m not worried  at all. )

This is how I know God is my pal.  In November I had a freak paralysis of my right leg that lasted five hours, documented by doctors at BID Milton Hospital. Then my mobility returned to normal.  Four medical experts looked at MRI’s, scans, blood tests, and sonograms; but is was not due to strokes, clots, or brain lesions. I’m officially a medical anomaly. The neurologist said so.

So here’s the “God is my pal” part.  Doctors discovered an unrelated lung tumor, 3.7 cm, which might be cancerous.  Because of its size, it has to come out no matter what. While I’m in surgery, the removed tumor will be analyzed for malignancy. If it’s benign, I get sewed back up. If it’s malignant, they perform a lobectomy, removing the top one-third of my left lung and surrounding lymph nodes. It’s so straightforward, really.

My surgery is set for Wednesday, March 4 at 10 a.m.  

Given my healthy history, I might ask, “Why me?”  But this is how fair God is, he doesn’t play favorites. Entitlements and logic mean nothing in the randomness of life.  Why not me?

Instead, I went on an inner journey guided by a Reiki healer to look deeper into my stress and behavior.

“You have a big, inner blabbermouth that is always talking, and you’re always talking back. Your schedule is way too full, you need to slow down,” she said.

Although she said my busyness did not cause the tumor, she did make a connection to my lung.  “It’s like you are always running to the next thing and you can barely catch your breath.”

Like many faced with potential cancer, I did an inner reset.  Like the tumor, what can I excise from my daily life?  Habits, obligations, guilt, maybe egotism that “no one can do this like me.”

My faith and Reiki have created a protective and calming cocoon; I am unafraid. 

God is my pal. If it weren’t for my freak, temporary paralysis, this lung mass never would have been detected in its early stages.  I mean, why would I ever have had all those MRI’s done?

Doctors give practical advice, and I’m onboard.  Spiritual evaluation is vital, too.  If God sends me such signs, good help, and perfect timing, wouldn’t it be ingratitude for me to ignore the message? “Slow down.”  I look to the heavens and say, “Yeah, I’m hearing you loud and clear.”

So there you go.  If they don’t misspell lobectomy as lobotomy, it will all work out.

What can you do for me?  Just beam me prayers and good thoughts. Envision my complete recovery.  We have more control over our physical state than we think. I’ll write again when I’m on the other side of surgery.


  1. Dearest Suzettie,
    So you! Always an inspiration- no self pity only gratitude. How many of us can look at life’s challenges like that. Thanks for teaching us all a lesson. My Virgin of Lourdes novena candle is burning brightly here in Paris. You’ll bounce back on those tiny feet as you always do -stronger than ever. And always the sense of humor-hmmm -lobectomy vs lobotomy. Dangerous Right -one tiny letter changes a monkey into a donkey! White healing light and prayers beaming your way. Love, Mollster.

    • hahaha! I still remember your famous saying how one letter changes an ex-boyfriend from a monkey to a donkey. I thought of that when wrote lobectomy v. lobotomy. I feel the strength of your candlelight prayers, Mollster. Thank you!

  2. Oh Suz! My mentor, my friend, my inspiration! I’m both, very sad to hear of your medical disturbance, so to speak and glad you’ve found it in time before major problems zapped your energy.

    Thank you for sharing “God is my pal” – God is with us all the time, especially during those dark moments of life (that can seem like years, and might be). I love, have always loved, how optimistic and “bring it on” person you are, thus an inspiration to me. I send my prayers daily for you and marked my calendar to stop and meditate to send ray of light to heal you. Bless you.

  3. Therese Desmond

    Hi Suzette, Good luck tomorrow – I think the sun, the moon and stars are aligned in your favor! Thank you for sharing your spiritual journey and may you live healthfully ever after..

    • Whoa, talk about God working in mysterious way. He could have just sent you an email. But hey, you’ll take it any way He decides to let you know. I have on my notepad: Wednesday, March 4, 10:00 pray up a storm for Suzette…. which I will do. Yes, this was a serendipitous alert. Thank God for it, and we will all pester Him unceasing (“pray unceasingly) that He has His huge arms around you until you’re better. Love and hugs, Allia

    • I need an elephant consortium in the wild on my side. Thanks, Therese!

  4. smooches to you. much love always

  5. Suzette, my friend for so many years. I’m sending out prayers for a speedy recovery. Take care. Let your Big Pal and all your other pals carry you for now.

  6. I’m sending prayers and my very best juju your way. You are such a gift to so many.

  7. Wishing you all good things this week with your surgery.
    I’m finished with radiation and chemo. Now on to surgery and stem cell transplant myself. Hopefully, this will get me out of the bed I’ve been stuck in for 6 months.

    I hope to see you on the other side where I can buy you a lunch and celebrate your health.❤️

    • Oh, Leslie, what you’ve been through, so much more difficult and still with grace to others. That’s so you, and we will toast our complete health together in celebration. I’m beaming you Reiki!

  8. Suzette
    You are in my prayers!!

  9. Suzette, you’ve been an inspiration to me, spiritually and otherwise, since the day we met about 11 years ago at the Erma Bombeck writers workshop. Over the years, you’ve helped me in so many ways with your advice and prayers. I truly consider it a blessing to know you. Add me to the list of your many friends who are praying for your speedy and complete healing. I’ve even set an alarm for 10 a.m. Wednesday to remind me! 🙂

  10. Sending up prayers for you my sweet friend! Benign or not, you , with the help of your pal God, have got this! ❤️🙏💐

  11. Wow!!!! This has been an utterly amazing two years. Me with my stuff last year, you this year. Attitude is 80% of success in beating cancer — that’s what my oncologist told me. I’m here if you need to talk anytime. I’m putting you on our temple’s mishabaret list. That’s hundreds of Jews praying for you. You’re going to be just fine, I know it.

  12. Praying for you and your surgery tomorrow, Suzette. Jesus, the great physician, is with you. Praying…

  13. Margarette Jacob

    This is so beautiful Suzette. I’m beaming you those prayers, good thoughts and visions of complete recovery right now. Have a great day tomorrow!

  14. Diane DiTullio Agostino

    God has a reason for everything and a plan for everyone. Fortunately for you, it is 2020 and although we 🙏 it’s benign, today’s science to cure or manage Cancer is constantly improving. Sweet dreams tonight and rest through tomorrow until you’re ready for that onion soup ❤️

    • Diane, thank you. Talk about things changing by the minute. My surgery was cancelled today due to low white blood counts, probably from a recent cold. Will be rescheduled. Meanwhile, I’m so appreciative!

  15. How did I not see this until now? Oh Suzette! So you had this scheduled, even when you were in San Francisco! What a role model you are to the rest of us! I practiced Reiki at one time in my life when I was working in massage and other modes of bodywork. I found it so moving … and so utterly real. Your practitioner named it all right. Think of last June’s NSNC conference alone. It never would have worked without your superhuman and very costly-to-yourself effort. God bless you!

    • Terry, how I love hearing from you. Actually when I was in SF, I had not yet scheduled anything. I was waiting to return home to find out if surgery was necessary. Then everything happened so fast. And yet another development. Today is my surgery and they cancelled it due to low white blood counts. To be rescheduled. AAAARRRRRH!

  16. Dear Beautiful Suzette: You know how much you mean to me. Thank you for being a mentor, a cheerleader, and a friend. You and your family are in my heart and prayers.

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